Ambiguous.

And yes, eventually, I fell for him, for the way he showed care to me.

I remember one day, after he sent me home my parents wasn't back yet and he came into my house to accompany me. He laid his head on the pillow at my lap. His face came really close to me. Butterflies grew in my stomach. He asked what would I do if he kissed me. I don't know if I did blushed but my blood rushed quickly to my face. I did not know how to react. I hoped that he just kissed me without asking or letting me know. I love surprise actions.

From that day, our relationship became more closer and we acted like couple in other people's eyes. We decided to go out on the 14th of September. The excuse for us to date each other was to show Khai around Pavilion. Hahaha. It have always been like an excuse for us to date because asking each other out is awkward. As usual, he picked me up from my house. Difference is, he held my hand in the car. I did not reject him because I didn't want to. Duh. After we arrived the destination, after he parked his car in the parking lot at Fahrenheit 88, after he pulled his car's hand break, he kissed me for the first time. One thing I liked about it is that he did not ask.

"Is that our start?" I thought.
He did not ask me to be his girlfriend, all he did was holding my hand and went like "What if Khai saw this?" of course I went like "Let her be then". That answer wasn't clear enough for that dumb dude of course. I just wanted him to ask me. But he only asked whats our relationship now. Dumb. But I like. The best relationship usually begins the most unexpectedly.

I didn't know I would be this deeply in love with him.

Distance.

I'm just not that kind that would still be extra friendly to some guy that's not interested in me. I mean, I don't really talk to people who likes my friend.

Yes, I started to keep distance with him although we have not know each other long yet.
He had some difficulties with that girl and yes I was the caring kind of girl that comforted him when he was down and moody about her. I tried to help him.
We ended up growing closer again as he shares a lot about the girl to me. Then we started talking days and nights, he share his trip to China to me and I followed his car to college during the second semester. He was still into her until the after freshies night. She did not show interest on him, eventually he gave up, I guess. Those days after freshies night, he started talking to me weirdly again. Things that couples talk to each other. We hang out, he picks me up and send me home.

This post is short because I do not want to elaborate about this. Just let it keep in my mind alright.

Closer.

Just like the others, we started off as strangers.

Although we were in the same class and same group, we rarely talk. Till one day, my friend said that he looks not bad and out of a sudden I just wanted to make fun of her and since he sat beside me during MPW classes, I asked for his name and phone number. Tho we didn't even talk after asking him for that.
After a few days I guess? I can't remember exactly when, I found his facebook. I hesitated to add him because it would feels like I stalked him but I decided to add at last cuz however he's my classmate and groupmate there isn't any wrong adding him.
I sent the friend request. He accepted within a while.
He talked to me on facebook, and there was when we started to grow closer.

We chat about dumb things, and things that made us closer is a conversation about dogs smelling each others' ass when they make new friends. Hahahaha. Stupid, I know.
As days goes by, we started to text each other. Talking about random stuffs. Well, when people just got to know about each other they just have so much of different things to talk about.
There was once he was talking really weirdly to me. He told me weird things like I miss you kind of stuffs.
Didn't really paid attention to it at first. I thought he liked me until he started to show more interest about another girl.

Met.

This would be a very long story which we need to start talking about it about more than a year ago back in 2013. To be honest, I don't know which chapter I'm gonna reach because I often just give up writing because reminiscing some unpleasant memories are pain to me. Did not skip them before because I think I should record everything but for now, I may just skip all of them because what past are passed. :) Oh, and my laptop is running out of battery plus my dumb poke is back now I'm not considering to charge it. LOL. I really don't know where would I write till okay.

Back into 2013.
I graduated from my high school. Secondary school to be exact, that's what we the Malaysian refer them as. LOL. After a lot of consideration, I ended up enrolled into INTI International College Subang.
Yes, I thought it was a total mess of my life. I have literally no friends there, my friends were all in Taylor's Lakeside and I'm the only one in INTI. More accurately, I did not even meet anyone who is same secondary school with me during orientation.
Honestly I really felt that I screwed up my college life during the first few days.

As the semester we enrolled was a short breaching semester, our classes started one day right after the orientation day. Also, all of us that are from different courses are able to sit in one class.
The first time I saw him was during the first MPW class. He was a friend of a girl that asked me if they can join our group for the assignment. That was the first time I met him. However, I did not talk to him. He looks shy and I am shy okay.

Frankly.

I started this blog because I was really bored during this semester break and I just came across reading some blogs and a lovely post of my friend about she and her boyfriend. So this idea just struck into my head. 

This blog may not even have any readers and even myself can't clarify the reason I started this. I just feel like blogging something y'know. Of course, I missed him a whole loads when I don't even know when is the next time I'll be meeting him during this semester break. Soon, hopefully. 

I'm just gonna tell about our dumb love story over here alright. Judge whatever you want because I don't give a damn about your thoughts. ;) peace. 

So yeah, whoever discovers this blog, do enjoy.